words...and deeds

Words...Guruji says are useless unless they become existence and so is love...just an emotion until it becomes existence.
But what is this existence?
Is existence the fact that so many people, events and circumstances happen and is life, the way you deal with them?
At all point in time, there is dystopia and the world always moves towards the brink of destruction, so are the events in our lives such that even movies are fashioned after such occurrences.
Was there ever a time when there was a perfect society?
Is there ever a time when a human being is free of his desires, his cravings, his emotions, his conflicts and his confusions...what is this 'perfection' that everyone always talks of moving towards?
Who am 'I'who is asking all these question, who am I that watches all these events, happy and sad pass by... Who am 'I' that watches something in me writhe in pain, boundless in its ecstasy, who am I that watches as regret and desire burn their way into my pure untainted soul...?

clouds

i saw the clouds up in the sky
through the window
through the window of my soul
they were tinged a pale grey
harbingers of the lush green rain
the rain that sustains life
the rain that sustains my love
and my love was tinged with that very grey
floating by
i wish it could be proud and fiery and strong
like the sun
but clouds are just clouds
they pass-by
come and go
they can't hide the sun
that still shines forth
my soul burns on
the wick at the holy shrine
that only lights more
never fades
never dies
it is
and perhaps that is what i m seeking
my love... oh! divine..

i wish i could be new

i wish i could be something new
something fresh, something pure
a prayer in the village church pew
the rainbow in the sky-azure

i wish i would be something new
not a wanderer in the mirage of the world
not a leaf that withers brown against the blue
nor an insignifanct character in the story untold

i wish i could be something new
the dance of the rain in the hills of yore
the smile of the godess,long-overdue
the bilss of my saint as he asks for nothing more

i wish i could be something new
the naked flame in the temple altar
the mighty thunder, for the storm a cue
the green grass that in the storm does not falter

i wish i could be new here and now
in your arms, Guruji for the eternity to come
in your love, and by your grace, in your servitude i bow

joy

Bubbling springs of the joyful river
sunlight through the snowy mountains -a sliver
joy wells up, hope grows, 'i' becomes a giver
the moment fulfills itself in a life full of rigour

Faces all aglow around
one touch and sorrow-no more bound
to life-like a sinuous vine,only the sound
of the springs of joy eternal found

by none other than the very heart
finds none in this creation apart
from itself,sends forth the dart
of its love, to play its part
in this world-play , a mighty start

dignity is only yours to uphold...no one can take it away frm unless u let them
and one more profound sentance that i heard today:
" You ll see that most people are nice..when you get close to them"
that's so much similar to what guruji says
that there's love in everybody's heart, you just need to look for it and give it to them , when it s buried far too deep
sounds easy
only when you are aware can you actually feel it and apply it
not while lost in the body, breath, mind, memory and ego.....
and that's what, closeness means...belongingness....closing the distance that ego forms between the various forms of this creation...
the test of knowledge...for me
that you are me and i am you and we are nothing....yet everything

gavin rossdale's song...so close to my heart

Half the time the world is ending
truth is i am done pretending
i ve never thought that i
had anymore to give
you re pushin me so far
here i am withou you
drink, to all that we have lost,
mistakes we have made
everything will change
but love remains the same

pondering..

It is said in Yoga Vasistha that the present moment is more powerful than the actions of the past, if we strive for it to be so... Strange when Guruji says that what happens in our lives is out of our hands and Vasistha says it is all a result of our Karma...Does Guruji mean that these life events are currently out of our hand but they are athe fruits of past life actions which of course we don't remember? or does he mean that events are a result of probability, but it is upto us what we do with them? Either way, being aware of the now and constantly engaging in it is the wisest thing to do..... in my experience...
Another wise thing I heard by Swami Nithyananda:
It cheered me up instantly:
He urged us to be like Kalabhairav who dances in exultant bliss even in the cremation ground, among all the dead bodies, the bones and skulls....meaning that despite our anger, lust, depression and every feeling, it is within our power to choose to rise above it and dance in joy, meaning to remain untouched by everything that happens around...and walk with strength and faith that we are strong within ourselves and the power to overcome any obstacle lies within us....Just like the blade of grass that dances in the storm...
Jai Guru Dev